Today's a pretty fun day Got plenty of sleep!!! then went to Stats lecture It was raining cats and dogs and I just managed to get there by 10.20am Gosh.!! Lucky I was on the dot again,I was pretty lucky these few days Thank god! I met Rachel after that for dinner before going for squash and the funny thing is Pearlyn hit my ball and stuck up on the roof and while Han Wei,Pearlyn and Me were trying to retrieve the ball Pearlyn's squash ball got stuck She was like stunned! haha..but luckily it fall off,and we tried all methods btw! throwing ball,throwing every assets we have I already had gave up. But Han Wei,thanks to his ''stickman'' He was very determined and keep throwing his shoes countless of times AND FINALLY HE DID IT!! I was so surprised! and really thank him for that=DD We played a match AND I lost duh.Anyway it's just a game While we were going home. It was the serious talks,and I really did some self-reflection about myself yup yup. I think I suck alot sometime Haha....well. Hope this following shall not be some emo post,duh..I hate emo stuffs BUT...I sometimes need to type some stuffs in my blog to remind myself Well..I think that 6 promises I posted last time goes pretty well I did 4/6 of it! Smoking is just so difficult to quit I think really hard! My Mum only have ME No more job,No more stress! I have wonderful friends and this wonderful person that keeps motivating me,not giving me up Why am I giving up myself? I loses stamina...I can't have proper training or sports for long hours I don't look good definately It destroys my health ....the negatives BUT why am I still doing it? I must have a high determination now no matter what and I think I let alot of people down by doing that Nonetheless I feel better now Actually after Han wei talk to me,it was just the beginning BUT it was actually when I saw one of my classmate at 5N;Wee Kiat I begin to think better. He felt betrayed nonethless by one person...whom recently treat him coldly for nothing And the worse thing is,he felt so cheated and make used by the person Then when I confront him,I felt that...HEY! I sound so professional and make him really think on the bright sight. But why can't I convince myself? Why can't I do something for myself instead of keep relying on someone to help me this and that I also remember someone telling me this... IN this World...You can only trust yourself Well...that's going to apply at work in the future But why wait?start practicing now.... and learn how to adapt the style of it...Won't it be better? and I really feel so sorry for my friends and myself for my actions sometimes I felt so bad and let you all down,my friends,good friends and family,especially my Mum and Grandma Whom put in so much effort,yet I didn't do something to make them really feel proud. Where is the old innocent me? Where I will always tell people not to do the bad things? I changed so much,but it's from when? Can the old Justin come back? Only bring the good things...But leave the negatives behind There are so many question for myself to answer and I really hope one fine day Where I go to blog. I will be proud to say: I suceeded!IN life I will never let you down!
